A sad few days

Yesterday and today I have been really struggling with things emotionally.
I woke up yesterday to a horrendous migrane which made me throw up everytime I tried to move my head. I just about managed to get Abigail up and fed and then laid on the sofa with my eyes shut while bless her she played really nicely with her toys. The at 9.30 she actually asked to go to her cot - i couldn't believe it! And then she slept and played in her cot until 12.30 when i woke up feeling much better!
The rest of the day we had lots of cuddles and I struggled along - she really is an angel the only thing that made me smile yesterday.
Mum took me out to a jewlery party in the evening at her friends house and i brought a gorgeous necklace to wear to my cousins communion this Saturday.

Today has been slightly better as we made it out the house as yesterday I was too worried i'd burst into tears. Also the kitten had to have her first set of injections which Im sure would have looked funny watching me struggle trying to carry Abigail, the kitten in her box thing and Abigails bag into the vet!

Abigail had an early night tonight in bed by 6.15pm and i'm waiting for ed to get in. I think it being dads anniversary yesterday has brought up all the emotions I suppose I try not to think about every day as i'd just end up crying. I just miss him SO much. I really wish he had gotten to meet Abigail or even know I was to have her. Something tells me he knows as yesterday everytime I felt so sad even though i wasn't saying anything she gave me the biggest smiles and hugs to cheer me up which helped so much - she is my angel sent to me by him.

We have mother and baby group tomorrow so need to get back to normality and get on with life - which i will but I'll never stop thinking about you dad you are with my everyday.... i love you