RIP And Fly Free Toria

Toria Crossland

13/02/1985 - 22/10/2008

Fly free now you will never be forgotten always on my mind and in my heart

The worlds best mummy, daughter, sister, friend.

Update on Us

Oliver all snug in his pushchair
One set of feed and medicines that Oliver is on!
My gorgoeus girl enjoying the October Sunshine at the park
My skinny little tumble tot!

I thought it was about time I updated about us, if you've been following my blog you'll know that one of my dearest best friends has been fighting for her life in intensive care so hence i've not really felt like blogging about how we're doing as it just didn't seem right my little problems are nothing compared to what she's going through! Now Toria has turned the corner I feel its ok to tell you what we've been up to!

Anyway, Since Abi started nursery at the begginging of September the poor little thing has had one thing after another!

Starting with both ear infections and a horrendous chest infection the ear infections cleared up with a course of antibiotics after about 5 days but the chest infection is still going.

Shortly after that course of anitbiotics finished she came down with Hand Foot And Mouth Disease where her mouth filled with about 30 ulcers she couldnt talk or swallow and was really really poorly nearly admitted into hospital with dehydration but we managed to keep on top if that with ice lollies to cool her mouth and get a bit of liquid in there!

Then that took a good 10 days to go but because everytime she put anything in her mouth is was so sore she got a complex phobia about eating - the weight has just fallen off her not that she had any to loose in the first place!

Then last sunday she kept wetting herself and crying saying her bottom was sore - at first I was a little cross as she has been dry for about 8 months now! But then I thought this isn't right anyway put her to bed and about an hour later she woke up screaming in pain saying she needed the toilet I put her on the toilet and she went but it was almost totally red from blood - she was rushed up to broomfield and now has a kidney infection so is on yet another course of Antibiotics!

The poor little thing! She still has a stinking chest infection too is hacking away!

She is so withdrawn now we are trying to get her back into things get her energy levels back up - she can't walk very far at all now so are trying to make her walk that little bit further before she gets into the pushchair. I took her back to tumble tots yesterday she managed a little but promptly fell asleep in the pushchair afterwards as was shattered!

When she woke up we went to the park to cheer her up a bit as it was a lovely sunny october afternoon, she enjoyed the swings but needed to be pushed the whole way home where as before as the park is so close to us she would have walked home.

Oliver on the other hand is doing amazing! He is still on alot of medicines with every feed - see picture but is doing really well he is smilling away and can almost hold his head now, he sleeps through the night and is such a happy baby we are so luckily!!

Myself I haven't been too well either but these things happen and we need to carry on!

I hope this finds you all well and thank-you so much again for all your prayers!!!

Toria Update

Toria is still in the ITU but alot more stable she is making definate progress she is needing alot less support and although it still on the ventilator is trying to breathe on her own!
Thank-you from the bottom of my heart for all your thoughts and prayers, I couldn't have done this without you!
The power of prayer is working!
Come on Toria you can do it keep fighting!!!

Please pray hard

I don't know if any of you know toria she is one of my very best friends. Toria went into the brompton on 1st September, she responded to IV's well and decided to get her new port fitted while she was in her crp (infection markers in her blood) had come down enough and a cancelation came up so she got it pretty quick. Unfortunately the surgeon managed to puncture her lung during the procedure. She spent a long time with a chest drain in HDU eventually after a long 2 weeks the drain stopped bubbling and she managed to get it out and move back over to foulis. She had a rough few days with her asthma tried atrovent nebs but they made her swell up, she had the physio called in lots and was coughing up pots and pots of sputum. On wed 1st Oct she text me that things had gone alot worse her crp was over 300 her heart rate was very high and they put her on NIV but at the end she put she was going to be just fine - typical toria! I got a text from Luke her partner that said she is in ITU fully sedated,intubated and under paralysis and that her chances arn't good. I'm absolutely devestated, she is such a fighter but I just don't know if she's strong enough. Luke and their 9 month old gorgeous son Edward could really do with our prayers at the moment. Cf is so cruel she is the bestest friend ever and has a gorgeous son and partner waiting for her. This can't be happening she's got to fight. Please pray for her