A sad few days

Yesterday and today I have been really struggling with things emotionally.
I woke up yesterday to a horrendous migrane which made me throw up everytime I tried to move my head. I just about managed to get Abigail up and fed and then laid on the sofa with my eyes shut while bless her she played really nicely with her toys. The at 9.30 she actually asked to go to her cot - i couldn't believe it! And then she slept and played in her cot until 12.30 when i woke up feeling much better!
The rest of the day we had lots of cuddles and I struggled along - she really is an angel the only thing that made me smile yesterday.
Mum took me out to a jewlery party in the evening at her friends house and i brought a gorgeous necklace to wear to my cousins communion this Saturday.

Today has been slightly better as we made it out the house as yesterday I was too worried i'd burst into tears. Also the kitten had to have her first set of injections which Im sure would have looked funny watching me struggle trying to carry Abigail, the kitten in her box thing and Abigails bag into the vet!

Abigail had an early night tonight in bed by 6.15pm and i'm waiting for ed to get in. I think it being dads anniversary yesterday has brought up all the emotions I suppose I try not to think about every day as i'd just end up crying. I just miss him SO much. I really wish he had gotten to meet Abigail or even know I was to have her. Something tells me he knows as yesterday everytime I felt so sad even though i wasn't saying anything she gave me the biggest smiles and hugs to cheer me up which helped so much - she is my angel sent to me by him.

We have mother and baby group tomorrow so need to get back to normality and get on with life - which i will but I'll never stop thinking about you dad you are with my everyday.... i love you

20/05/2007

Chelmsford Schools chelmsford festival concert at chelmsfor cathedral
Abigail posing in her car seat

As promised a picture of the new shoes

We have had a lovely weekend and enjoyed the nice weather too!!

It was the concert on sat morning which was lovely to see - i took a few pictures but couldn't get Ed in any im afraid.

We then spent the afternoon test driving and looking at cars to decide what to order as my new motability car - we've decided on the Ford S-Max but unfortunately there are none in stock so its got to be made for us so could take 12 weeks!!

Today we went to church then had a lovely long sleep and then Hilary simon and lillie came round which was nice as abigail had alot of attention.

Its dad's second anniversary tomorrow - I can't believe it has been 2 years already! I miss him SO much everyday. I love you dad.........

In memory of Malcolm Arscott 28/03/45 - 21/05/05

18/05/2007

Another week has just flown by! We've had a nice week going out to lunch twice and abigail having her first hair cut!!

Abigail having her first hair cut!! Sitting still only as her mouth was full ;)
Isis deciding to sit in abigail's high chair - with this kittne we don't need tv she is so amusing to watch her every move she is absolutely nuts!!

On Tuesday we went out to lunch with Gemma and Ashton, Beccy and Eleanor and Shelley and Darcey to celebrate Shelley's birthday. It was lovely we had a lovey meal and all the girls behaved themselves and then went to the wacky warehouse so the girls could play.

Abigail and I also went out to lunch on thursday with Tracey :) She then dragged us round the whole of chelmsford choosing a wedding outfit - it was actualy great fun as she is so like me so indecisive, but we got the outfit and shoes!! (good job really as the wedding was the next day!!!) We also went to get Abigail's feet measured and she's grown again so another new pair of shoes. Haven't actually taken a picture yet so will add one soon. The picture of abigail getting her hair cut you can see the soles but will take a better one soon.

Abigail and I have had a lazy day today but went to Beccy and eleanors to play this afternoon the girls had a nice time and Beccy and I had a nice chat over a cuppa :)

Wow where has the week gone

The title says it all really this week has just flown by - maybe as ed was only at work for 4 days because of bank holiday.
Abigail unfortunately is unwell again her asthma is really playing her up with a really chesty cough and a lovely bout of dioreaha (spl) to go with it! So this week has been sleepless nights and lots of washing.
Looking forward to a realxing weekend.
Some exciting news on the move front is that we are hopefully going to exchange contracts at the end of next week so our move is imminent! :) YAY
Hoping this is finding everyone well

Bank Holiday Weekend

Aunty (EMY) Emily reading books with Abigail
Daddy and Abigail having a cuddle

Abigail enjoying Nana's wine

Abigail enjoying the curry

Abigail wearing mummy's shoes

Isis - our new addition to the family

We have had a lovely bank hol weekend very quiet and relaxing.

Friday our new addition was ready to be collected - 6 weeks old little kitten

Saturday we went to see GG Abigail's Great Grandma Dorothy (ed's grandma) in Southend for lunch. She couldn't get over how much Abigail was changing and growing up so fast!!

Sunday we went out for lunch and then had a relaxing afternoon playing with Isis, Nana Hils, Grandad Simon, Aunty Lillie and Aunty Emily came round

Monday we had a really lazy day reading books and lots of sleeping!! In the evening we went out for a very yummy curry with my mum and steve abigail enjoyed trying everything - its amazing what she eats!!

We had such a lovely relaxing time - it was a shock hitting reality again today with ed back to work and Abigail having a bad day being really stroppy refusing to eat or sleep and being generally grumpy!!

So i'm off to bed now for some well earned rest!

02/05/07

Not updated for a while as we were getting over Abigail's nasty bug, and enjoying the sunshine.

Abigail is much better now and we are just concentrating on building her up! Went to see Alice at uni yesterday which was nice went out to pizza hut which was very yummy.

Abigail has tumble tots in the morning which she is really looking forward to.

Hope this finds everyone well and i'll update when we've got some news